I thought I would write about something very dear to me. It’s been quite a year as indicated in an earlier blog. It seems I can’t get around the things I fear the most. Instead I try avoiding everything that I have no control over and it drives me crazy. So what is Faith? Is it easy? Faith is a complete trust or confidence in someone or something. It’s not easy at all to believe in something you can’t see or feel. I do have faith but sadly it has been only on my terms. My life has gone through so many struggles and it all started when I was a kid. Without all the details it was rough for me to come to terms or accept what I couldn’t change. For some reason I thought I could lead on my own understanding, well that hasn’t gone very well. I found myself living inside this bubble of my world, protecting myself from hurt from pain but looking back it didn’t help me at all instead it has made that bubble even bigger and harder to pop. I realize that we only get one chance at life and years have been wasted wondering and worrying about what’s going to happen next, instead of living every day for the moment. I sit and wish I could go back and change so many things but if I did that I wouldn’t have learned any of life’s lessons. Now as a mother I try to teach my kids to enjoy every moment, instead of wasting precious time. Even in my darkest moments I know where I need to be and that would be laying all my fears and worry in God’s hands instead of relying on myself to get through it because it has only brought me more fear and anguish especially when I can’t fix it. Some may say they don’t believe or even care about God and I say that is completely your decision and this is mine. Don’t get stuck in that bubble and then have no way out, find a way, fight hard for what you have faith in. I may never know why things happen they way they do good, bad or indifferent but I need to have more Faith and dig myself into God’s word because that is where my strength needs to come from. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. ~Proverbs 3:5-6.