And so this would be me tonight as I await surgery in the morning. My blog yesterday was kind of a prelude to tomorrow was as well. I have had quite a few procedures in the past but nothing as serious as this. I have had biopsy’s before but this is to remove a lump along with surrounding tissue. I have a very supportive family but there is only so much you can tell them about your really feeling inside. What does my fear really bring to my family? Worry, anxiety? I don’t want that for them. I know I need this procedure in order to be preventative but it’s still very scary when you have no control which then leads me back to my bubble that I tend to stay in. I will pray and just believe it will be quick and painless. As I stated previously a biopsy took almost 2 hours last year, well I really don’t want to have to experience that again. I am hoping to have a quick recovery as well, they say it could be up to a month but with my extremely busy life, there is no time to be wasting. So although I have so many unspoken fears I am going to push through to the best of my ability.