She just wanted the simple life, no head games and no more people controlling her life. Julie sat down on the sofa gazing at the fog that had come over the mountains. Something caught her eye, though she wasn’t sure what she saw, it frightened her so bad she ran upstairs slamming the door to her room. Julie peaked out her window when she noticed a slim figure was standing behind one of the pine trees. Oh my god, someone is watching me! With her heart filled with terror, she froze not knowing what to do. Her phone was downstairs on the kitchen counter. Loud sounds started echoing from the stairway getting closer with each second.
What is this you say? Give yourself a break? I guess I should take my own advice on this one. Our lives get so full that we really forget about the things that matter the most. I love writing, it gives me a sense of escape from all the world has to throw at me. I am sure so many of you have busy lives and don’t know which way to turn sometimes. My household consists of my 3 girls, my hubby, 2 dogs, and a cat. I stay at home to be a learning coach for my youngest as she does online school. She also has a disability so I make due with what I have. I don’t know about any of you but I get so overwhelmed and feel like my head is going to pop off sometimes. How do we take time for ourselves when the time isn’t on our side or so it seems? I am slowly learning that what I am doing just isn’t working so I need to figure something else out. I am thinking maybe writing out a schedule but then I think schedules tend to change. I do believe taking time for yourself is imperative, you can get so hung up on things you may get depressed which can be a serious situation as well. Life is way to short to be constantly wishing for time instead of giving yourself time. In today’s world, communication doesn’t seem to be as important the way it used to be. No one calls anyone anymore so instead, we give a text message. Sometimes we need to stop what we are doing and look around us just to see what we are actually missing. Take a walk if you need to, sit outside and have a cup of coffee. Do whatever makes you happy even if it’s just for a few minutes. We all need a little rejuvenating sometimes. Ask friends or family to dog sit/babysit for you while you take a little time for yourself. Look at it like a job you work 8 hours a day usually, they give lunch and 2 breaks. Let yourself be free for a while and spend more time on you!
As someone who has seen what cancer can do, I advocate for all cancer survivors but this one really hits home for me. I have already written about my extremely scary situation with having numerous surgeries in order to help prevent breast cancer. After a breast cancer scare last year I have made it a point to make sure I go to my doctor as scheduled which for me is quite often. When I found my first lump almost 2 years ago I just brushed it off. I googled it almost every day just to see if what I was feeling was just a lump and not really cancer. My family doctor and my husband both encouraged me to go get a mammogram even if it wasn’t cancer at least I would have peace of mind. I was so scared. There were a few of my family members that had breast cancer and knew they had at least one of their breast removed but unfortunately I didn’t realize the real extent of my family history. I finally got the courage to get my mammogram, it wasn’t painful like I thought it would be and it was pretty quick. After getting the results to my test they felt I need further testing. They sent me to have a biopsy, an ultrasound, and an MRI. They also had me do a genetic test to see if I had the BRCA gene along with many other cancer tests being that family history was so high. My chances are much greater than the average population but I will continue to be aware of what’s going on with my body and do everything I can to prevent this from ever happening. Through this past year, I have learned a lot about myself and others. The thought of having cancer of any kind at any point in one’s life is terrifying. I would say we need to be proactive and take preventative measures as best we can. Watching so many of my friends and family pass away from this horrible disease isn’t something I want to continue to see. We need to find a cure and stop cancer dead in its track. So this month may we remember those we have lost to breast cancer. Come join the fight!!
As they continued to talk and have their dinner Julie noticed a man sitting at the on the other side of the diner and she really couldn’t see who it was but from a distant, it looked like James and he was with someone.
“Wendy, look I think James is here!”
“ Wait, what?” James from school she blurted out loudly.
“ Shhhh don’t bring attention to our table. I ran into him today at the market!”
“Oh, and how did that go?”
“I think James is still harboring old feelings because I chose to be with Bill instead.”
“And are you regretting that decision?”, Wendy snickered.
“Actually I haven’t forgotten James. He was one of my best friends and lovers but somehow Bill came in and swept me off my feet and I never looked back. If I could go back and change things…well I guess we won’t ever really know that out because I am married and as it appears James is also taken so spending another minute wishing isn’t going to do me any good.”
Sadness came across her face and she decided it was time to call it a night.
She sat down on her bed feeling really sorry for herself not knowing from one day to the next whether things would really work itself out or if it was going to just come crumbling down all at once. Looking out the back patio all Julie could see was the beautiful leaves that started falling off the trees, her favorite time of year. There was a little bit of time before she needed to get ready for dinner so she decided to take a walk. She needed to clear her mind because there was so much going through it. How could this marriage have fallen apart so quickly?e started out being the best husband anyone could ask for but when he got his promotion it’s like his desire turned directly to work and our lives started becoming less involved. Before they moved in together she didn’t have much of anything, other than her clothes and some money she had saved from a previous job. She had never been on her own so she had certainly dreamed of being independent and not always relying on someone else to take care of her. Bill didn’t want her working or really doing much of anything except doing wifely duties such as cleaning the house, going for groceries, cooking dinner every night and paying some of the bills. Bill only allowed me to see the household bills because he had his own expenses that didn’t entail me getting involved so I just stay out of it. I really need to search myself and really decide what’s best for me because I feel at my wit’s end. After a nice walk, she returned home and hopped in the shower and grabbed one of her nice cocktail dresses. She put on some heels and a touch of perfume. Julie had autumn colored hair that flowed down to her waistline and had a slim figure. She swiped her keys and headed to the car like a girl on a mission.
I thought I would make a special blog tonight about mental illness. It is such a big deal in today’s society. I believe it can be so misunderstood and misused. I have many friends and family who have a mental illness. There are millions of people who have a mental illness but what is it? Does it mean you are sick? Is it a death sentence? Mental illness isn’t something you can catch from someone, and it doesn’t mean your life is ruined. A few examples of mental illness, anxiety, post-traumatic stress disorder, panic attacks, and so many more. I see people become afraid of those who have a disorder because they feel something is really wrong with them. I think a lot more research needs to be put into figuring out just how to handle those with a mental disorder. I have seen judgement being passed around to so many but on the other hand, I see it being used as a weapon to get themselves out of trouble and it should not be done in either way. I have a daughter with MID and she has been ridiculed, made fun of and humiliated. That is the reason I homeschool her because she knows her environment is safe at home and doesn’t have to worry who is staring at her or making her feeling uncomfortable. I am her advocate and her biggest supporter. Schools need to take a long look at why kids are being bullied and why kids are dropping out of school. Could it be that kids are intimidated by the curriculum that is being put forth, I believe it’s called common core. Could it be they are feeling anxious about the school setting and don’t know how to handle themselves so maybe they act out by yelling or maybe they scream and cry? I am not just saying it’s our schools, it could be the grocery store or maybe it’s a job interview. We need to get to know one another, instead of making a judgment call about that person, get to know them first. Again, on the other hand, I have seen someone that has had a mental illness use that as a reason they broke the law. I am sorry but if you feel you have a problem you need to seek help. We still have a control of our lives don’t allow a title make you feel inferior or entitled. There is help out there but we still need to get educated on how to treat those with a mental illness.